Are we there yet???

Are we there yet??? To the place where love is actually love... people can have a debate that is nothing more, nothing less. No... we aren't... and I'll probably never get to see it. I realized today that I am alone in this world. No... honestly... I've always felt this way just never said it...  I've always felt alot of ways but I hate confrontation so I either agree or say nothing at all.... Yet, I am guilty also. There is no halo over my head.

I am not loved in this world... Maybe my mom or my brother.... but honestly noone else... Love understands you and helps you when you are hurting... love is unselfish.... and uncruel.... I am not there yet... to the place where I know... somebody loves and cares for me as much as I do them.... I have gotten passed the age of messiness and drama and yet I choose to be a follower not leader... I have lost my voice.

I have been in this vain world for six years... My outer may be like a painting and yet my inner is dead and gone. It's so many women and young girls who will do anything to be called beautiful... but honestly... is it for you.... or for the people looking at you. It is better to FEEL beautiful then to just BE. If I am wrong to say lets stop it.... can you give me a reason why??? I myself have become victim... I worry about my image more than I care to... the more I worry... the less confident I feel. The real me is a shy, sweet spirit and in my industry... that doesn't take you 2 far. So no... I am not there yet... to the place where I am truly me.

Are we there yet??? To the place where money doesn't change people... I mean, I love money and having it... but I am not consumed by greed. I am grateful for everything I get... I will not ask God why he gave me 100 dollars instead of 2... I would love a better car... yet, tho my car has alot of issues and doesn't look the best... I thank God that I have one. I may ask God for a full course meal... but I rather eat then to not eat at all... I have seen to many people fall into greed... yet, I understand. But I am not there yet...

Ladies.... and maybe Gentlemen.... the whole purpose of this section of my blog... is to say Love yourself... even when you feel that nobody else does... Change your negative to a positive... and take yourself to the place where you want to be... so you can finally say....  YES... WE ARE HERE. much love.


Invictus by William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.