Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder why I am a dreamer and not a logic. My mind spins and my tears fall as I awaken into the realness of my reality. If I could turn back time I would do almost everything different. I was raised in a STRONG christian environment with my mom and my brother. I was a shy sheltered child who preferred to be alone rather than with others. Most times I would sit in my room and write. I was an unhappy child and now I feel that most of my life was forced upon me and not chosen because of my naiveness to the REAL world. I have made TONS of mistakes that I will live with forever and even still... I have not changed. I thank my mom for instilling in me a strong faith... that if I were not raised in such a way... I would make those mistakes with no remorse and no regrets... my path would lead to a dead end. I have no idea about many things... but from now on I will think smarter... live smarter...and learn what it is I do not know and hopefully it will lead me into the direction of my hearts fulfillment.